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Monday, December 25, 2006

Alright, I figure there's no way I can put my thoughts in order and come up with a proper and meaningful entry with reference to my reflection in 2006. There are so many things that happened, I figure I might as well put them all up in segments. As and how things come out at the point in time I'm making all the entries, that is.

This year, I kinda got my first taste on what it's like to have temporary friendships. Good and bad, in a way. There wasn't really any feud going on. Maybe just a teeny weeny bit of misunderstandings, no common interest and the fact that nobody wanna express their true feelings whatsoever. So, the easier way out? To keep everything bottled up and just walk away. Ignoring the fact that we used to be chummy with one another.

As it is, there are a plenty of people whom I can no longer be true to or act as myself whenever I'm around them. It's impossible to strike a conversation with them as per normal and even when I do, it's like meaningless and totally forced, just so I don't appear too harsh or cold. Yes, very hypocritical but I can't help it. Think it's better to not voice out my true feelings and just let everything go without reaching any kinda closure. They have moved on with their new group of friends anyway.

I don't hate them. There are no reasons to. Only sometimes, I gotta wonder why we have to stray away from one another when we used to share so much good times together. People change, perspectives change. And I don't deny, I myself may have been the sole catalyst, triggering such an undesirable reaction. I do appreciate all those good times we had nonetheless. But to get back to what we used to be? Let it remain a memory. We will be friends, just not like before.

Somehow, all is not lost. Coz throughout this year, I made some new friends too. Ones whom I can really trust and depend on. Amazing huh? You lose some, and yet, you'll gain some who are probably more reliable than the previous ones. I don't mean to offend but this is so true to a certain extent. The ones whom I thought I'd never know, turns out to be those who wanna be there for me in times of need. It's extremely heartwarming and I'm not sure how many positive words I can use to describe how much I appreciate their presence in my life. Absolutely priceless.

Alas, I gotta understand that the new friendship I made, may also change as time goes by. What with us being separated and getting into different classes for next year. I gotta learn to move on. To understand that whatever that's gonna happen are just part and parcel of of our lives. The important thing is to cherish all those good times we had together and have every single one of them close to my heart regardless of the current circumstances.


Drifted Away @ 11:50 AM